I decided to take a break from writing for a while, for a number of reasons. Summed up in a whole, I really needed some time to myself and to concentrate on settling into college and the UK. I started college in September, and to be honest, at first it was a bit of a traumatic experience. I'm a pretty confident person, but nothing knocks your confidence like going into a place where you know no one and where no one is willing to donate a few moments of their time to have a quick convo, just to be nice. Anyway, that's a whole other blog.
So I've been pretty busy trying to meet new people, college and work. I've been working an awful lot recently cause I passed my driving test and I'm in desperate need of a car so I don't have to get on that bus anymore. This past month or so I've been pretty busy. I went back to Cyprus for a bit, I really needed it actually, just to see my family and friends and to chill out and have fun. It's looking forward to going home which is keeping me sane at the moment ha. These UK winters are harsh man, I don't know how people do it. I've never struggled to get out of bed and now I have to physically drag myself up.
Couple of weeks ago my dad came over from Cyprus as he's going to be on the rigs over Christmas and new year so I went to meet him in Manchester. It was awesome, such a nice little break. We went to see the Killers, they were fucking sick man, honestly I've never seen a band with such crazy energy. The week after I went to see the Kooks in Leeds and they were so good too, always wanted to see them, we had a crazy night out after and all I can say is, the tequila fucked me over big time, never felt so awful in my life ha.
Anyway, with all of this time off, I've suffered in the long run, being weighed down with work but, life comes first man. I've been feeling pretty confused recently, about how I feel about a lot of things and people. I have a lot of conflicting thoughts I've been having to try to deal with, nothing serious, don't worry ha, just stuff that has been playing on my mind a lot.
My life's goal is to always better myself, the only way you can do that sometimes, is to take a step back, re evaluate your entire life, question yourself, think of better solutions and enforce them, and that is what I have been trying to do these past few months. This past year and a half of my life has been the hardest period of my life, and I refuse to sit and fester in grief, sadness and loneliness because I know that's not what he would want, it's not what I want and it is not what my family want. So I've taken the time to think and prepare to take action to cut the shit out of my life so I can live with a pure and happy mind set.
I look over this period of my life, and I am so bloody proud of myself. I've had unconditional love from my family and I have managed to support myself and get myself through this. There are several outcomes and lessons I have learnt and one of them is that life is too short, put your own happiness first and life comes first. Re inventing yourself is not only for the new year, it is an on going process so just watch this space, I've got a feeling something pretty awesome is gonna come out of this.
